can I please meet this guy and hug him please? He means a lot to me and he’s helped me through so much freaking depression and I literally can’t thank him enough. He’s saved me from my worst enemy….myself. I just want to hug him and cuddle him and tell him what he’s done for me..because 140 characters is not enough characters for me to tell Mathew how much he means to me. I love him so much and it actually upsets me to know that he will never know how I truly feel about him. I know it’s going to sound ridiculous, but, honestly, I just really really love him. His laugh, the way he says ‘eh’ after almost everything, his face, his personality..everything. I love him so much. I just have to suck it up and accept the fact that he will probably never love me, and will end up marrying someone very lovely. And i have to realise that that person will most likely not be me. But sometimes I just wish he knew how I felt about him…you know? I could go on forever about how much he means to me and how much I love him but I know for a fact that none of you will read it all, and I know mat will never see this..but oh well. Face the facts and accept the truth, right?